D. Gray Man – Solitary

D. Gray Man - Solitary 

‘D. Gray Man’ by Katsura Hoshino
“Solitary” by Ryuuzaki Kusakurin

DISCLAIMER: D. Gray Man does not belong to me, but I can at least pretend every now and then, right?

Warnings: None
Yu Kanda
Theme Songs: Innocent Sorrow [Abingdon Boys School], Other World [Nobuo Uematsu]
Pairings: None
Story Word Count: 458

This drabble-ish thing will be posted on mediaminer.org, so if you want, you can always go read it there; I dunno why you would if you’re already here though.

Author’s Note: Ouch. I’ve been doing a lot of drabbles lately. For the record, I do have a forty-page fic I’m working on…

Dedicated to my friend Kitsune for hating Kanda. *sticks tongue out* He’s mine!

Chapter 1

Down, down, down into the blackness he plunged. The depths were cool and strangely inviting, as if a mother’s arms were beckoning to her wayward children that had long since run off. Surrounded by the dark atmosphere, it wasn’t hard to forget that there was a war raging still – the peaceful cavern was his private refuge, and his only place to find solace. As of late, he had felt his days drawing closer and closer to the end – the lotus flower he was forever forced to treasure only had three more petals now, but it was not entirely his fault, despite what he would think.

He could have blamed the akuma, or the Millennium Earl, or even the Black Order for enlisting him in a war that no one wanted to fight, but instead he blamed himself, based on shortcomings that were mostly in his head, or things that had happened that weren’t his fault at all. He would never believe that, though.

He blamed himself for not being stronger, and even as his blade whistled through the air and his blindfolded eyes sought out a target only his mind could see, he cursed his own existence. He was pitiful to his own eyes, it seemed – something that he would never forgive.

He was always a second too late, a hair’s breadth too weak, or a centimetre too far away. Always he was usually praised with empty words for an imaginary prowess – he wished that all his comrades would reward him with just a few moments of silence; that was all he would ever ask for, mostly in regards to Komui, Lavi – whom he held a grudging respect for, and the moyashi, Allen; the boy of the prophecy, the destroyer of time itself. All three had a way of bothering his very soul, especially the latter two; if they said that they would do something, they did it without fail, regardless of the odds stacked against them. The strength he felt he lacked lay in those two’s abilities to trust and be trusted by others…

Oh, he hated it. The way others looked at them was always with some degree of respect, however grudging, was almost something worth mentioning in and of itself. He didn’t care, he tried to tell himself, but the fact that he had noticed at all was testimony to the opposite.

Perhaps what he did lack could be made up for with friendship, but in the small time he had left to live, he would live it the same way he always had – alone.

Drawing Mugen once again, Kanda leapt off of his foothold, ready to face the next opponent, whether in his mind or in his soul.


~ by Larkir Kusakurin on Thursday, 07.02.2008.

9 Responses to “D. Gray Man – Solitary”

  1. I don’t hate Kanda, I just very much dislike him with a passion, that’s all. There’s a difference!…I think…=.=;
    Lavi and Allen are cooler!
    No matter, I really like the detail in this…
    Even if it is about a creepy, emo dude. -shivers-

    He’s sexy.
    Hehehe… MINE.
    You can have Lavi.

    Where were you today?

  3. I agree with Kitsune in that there’s a lot of good detail here.

    Maybe you should write a similar drabble about Allen, Lavi, Linalee, or even one of the Noah?

    I think one about Road would be funny.

  4. Yes he is! Creepy blue haired (shutup!) anti-social dude who’s life is measured by a lotus flower. (Note that I didn’t say emo)
    …o.o;; Wow, that is so wrong in so many ways.
    -fan girl sceam- Lavi! -huggles Lavi plushie- ^-^

    And you should make one of Road, that would be hilarious. x3

  5. I’ll do a Lavi one since we have a truce, okay?

    *gets to work*

  6. Fwee! ❤ ‘Kaykay!

  7. I think that Yumi beat me to it….

  8. bakanda not so bad but i hope he will smile more a bit n dun always “che” while kanda smile he look cool u noe…pls create more story..its very fun reading…my eyes stick on the computer screen…lol…

  9. BaKanda is cute!!!

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